The circle of life: my mom, my daugther and myself
How having a daughter got me to heal my mother wound
Did I tell you about that one?
My mom has been abusive my whole life, setting the ground during childhood and finishing the job in adulthood. That's why we are estranged.
To her, everything about me is wrong—too emotional, too strong, and too rebellious. I have always been the black sheep, therefore, trouble for her—the one to disturb the peace, the one she needed to tame, the one to punish. Plus, I'm ugly and fat. I am angry and critical. And let's not forget—I have a heart full of hatred (her words).
According to her, I am a bad person at my core.
WTF, right?
Anyway, after a lifetime of feeling too much, being an embarrassment to her, and trying to heal all that, I had a daughter myself.
And gosh, is she strong!
When she is unhappy, she lets you know! She flies off the mark.
In her first days, she had jaundice. Her little body had so much to handle: growing, digesting, getting used to being outside of my belly, and fighting jaundice all at once!
As much as I felt sorry for her, I was also inspired by how much of a fighter she is.
Suddenly, it clicked!
Replace strong-willed with driven, and you have it!
A strong-willed child isn't a bad child. It isn't here only to make your life miserable, to question your authority, or to test your limits.
Having a strong-willed child is an inspiration for you to get out of your comfort zone and try things.
Because a strong-willed child will want things for themselves. They will be ambitious, driven, and willing to explore and try.
Hanging out with them will eventually rub off on you.
It will inspire you, give you courage, and maybe also give you the strength to pursue dreams you forgot about.
A strong-willed child is an inspiration.
And this is what my mom has been missing out on.
I wasn't born to bother you, Mom.
I was born to give you some of my strength.
And that's what you would have got, had you had the maturity to truly see me.
*mic drop*
#motherwoundhealed